Monday, February 27, 2006 . 9:25 PM
Everything disintegrated into thin air just like that.. I knew this day would come, but i didn't expect it to come so soon, and definitely not at that moment and place today. I couldn't listen for the last 15 minutes of my economics lecture, not after i read the message. It was painful, i admit, and i couldn't control the tears that were coming down. I very much wanted to find a close friend and cry out loud in her presence. After the lecture, a few of us went early to the classroom. There was no one there i could rely on. A few minutes later, i saw Bibi coming in my direction and i knew i was definitely going to cry again.. and i did. I was outside the classroom.. Mun and Brian saw me and they were quite shocked to see me in such a state. After talking to Bibi, i knew what i had to do. It was really time to end it and move on.Nothing can better describe how I feel right now other than this song.
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*- Love brought me no where near happiness..
Saturday, February 11, 2006 . 8:17 AM
OH MY HOLY GOODNESS!!!That was my reaction when I heard my name being called out by Mrs Koh. It was freaky.. and I stood up with my hand over my mouth. Simply unbelieveable. I was shocked, surprised but most of all, exhilarated.. cause next to me getting 8 distinctions as well was my best friend for all time, SNG CUI XIA. Hearing her name being called, I burst into tears immediately. It was tears of joy. We did it, TOGETHER. When we could finally receive our results, CX came in front immediately (we were in register order, I 2, she 19) and we were like holding onto each other and crying. .. And we got pictured.. -.-"" After we got our results, we switched the slips first. I saw hers and she saw mine. Brilliant and again, unbelieveable. Both of us - 3 A2's and 5 A1's. We stared at each other, undeniably freaked out by how fate always chains us together. The reason we became best friends in the first place was because we found many many similiarities in our lives, which was scary, but also many many extreme differences. Then again, you know what they say about opposites attract.. =)
Crying and happy for each other, we went to call our parents. I was still crying hard so when i called my Mom she could barely make out what Iwas trying to say. LOL. She told me to cool down before calling her again. WhenI called my Dad and told him the news.. he sounded montonous... i thought he wasn't happy.. i was actually a bit disappointed. But later when Mom called, she said Dad couldn't make out what i was trying to say.. haha! So i guess alright, he's forgiven.
OK, so i gotta go already. Will post again soon!! bye!
*- Oh my holy goodness..
Monday, February 06, 2006 . 8:06 PM
Hey hey!! Just returned from the quick trip to Malaysia on Sunday. We went there for two days just to do New Year shopping and I'm a happy happy gal!! Bought loads of stuff - 1 black blouse, 4 shirts, 1 razorback, a pair of SEEDjeans, 4 skirts, a denim cap and 2 pair of sandals!! Hehe.. and ya, plus lots of undergarments but I shan't elaborate. Also got my hair cut for Rm35.. and i LOVE it. My cg mates commented it was nice! Yay man.. lol.. -.-"Today school quite slack but tomorrow's gonna be a a looong day, till 6.15. Haiz. And results are gonna be out on FRIDAY. Oh geez.. i can see the BIG 13 already. I think I'm gonna cry if i do worst than 11. seriously. Don't know why.. recently been feeling a bit burdened. Is it school work? Is it the results? or is it... haiz.
I'm hooked to mocha. I am. And I'm hooked to this song. Yi Ge Ren Sheng Huo by Lin Fan. I keep hearing it over and over again and I'm not sick of it. Speaks volumes of how I feel. Dunno why.. been thinking of a lot of things recently.. especially the past. Esp 2 years and 7 months...
Love is such a complicated thing. Just when you think you can let everything go, just when you thought it's all over, it can just come back again for no reason. I hate this. Why can't everything just be simple and innocent and lovely? Why must it be twisted around with so many troubles and woes?! WHY!!!
*sigh* just feeling so depressed at the moment. absolutely no mood to do Maths tutorial already. aqlso no more mood to blog... sorry..
*- just burdened...